Happy New Year!
I hope you all had a great night whether it was partying until dawn or curling up on the sofa in some pjs and ringing in the new year with TV and lots of snacks. Topher and I went to a flat party and had a great time.
So I figure I may as well get my 2018 goals set in stone on here so I can start trying to achieve them. I understand that everyone isn’t a fan of goals and resolutions but I am so I’m going to talk about mine here. I’ve been in a bit of a funk the last few months and I need to get my shit together, so I came up with a list of sweary goals to kick me into gear. Whatever works for you, right?
Fuck the Target Weight – Get to Happy Weight
Since I’ve been doing Slimming World on and off since 2013, I’ve always had a target in my head. 10 stone. It’s how much I weighed when I left for Uni back in 2006 (yowza!) and it’s a healthy weight for my height. Twice I’ve gotten to 11 stone but no further. I’ve never seen a 10 on the scales.
Both times I’ve been super happy with my body at that 11 stone mark but I still wanted to get to my target weight as it’s something I thought I wanted. After getting to my happy weight twice and retreating back up another stone, I finally realise that my happy weight is where I want to be.
I’ve put on a lot of weight in the last couple of months and I’m finding myself feeling as bad as I did when I was at my heaviest. My diet is shit, I’m craving fruit and veg and I’m getting out of breath going up the stairs again. I want 2018 to be the year that I get myself back to my happy weight and stay there. Fuck the target weight – I don’t need it or want it anymore.
So what’s my plan? I don’t think I’m rejoining Slimming World, at least not for the first part of the year – I’m skint and need to save money for other things. I’d like to get myself back at the gym again because that made me feel good. And I’ve already filled the fridge with stuff that isn’t fried so I plan on concentrating on making healthy snacks as that’s my problem area.
Fingers crossed I get there because I’m sick of feeling like shit.
Earn some fecking money
As I wrote in my guilt post, I didn’t push myself at all in 2017 when it came to work. I was playing the comparison game and putting way too much pressure on myself. Therefore I ended up struggling a lot with money – especially in the last few months of the year. I thought that the only way to make money was through Begin.Create and when I didn’t, I was so horrible to myself and didn’t go out and get VA clients as a result.
So I’m going to be easier on myself in 2018 and just say earn some fecking money. I don’t care how but just find a way. Get some more VA clients, figure out what I want to do with Begin.Create, do matched better, affiliate marketing and odd jobs wherever I can find them.
I might even consider getting a part time job to take the pressure off. It’s hard to be creative when you’re worrying about bills that need to be paid. I’m going to consider my options and do my best to just get some money in the bank. Yes money doesn’t buy happiness but let’s face it, it does when you don’t have enough to pay the bills, right?
Stop farting around and book that trip to Japan
I want to go to Japan in 2019. It would be a dream for me. So this goal kinda depends on the previous on to get off the ground. The easiest way would definitely be to get a part time job. I’m not jumping into just anything though. I know how I react in different work environments and I don’t want to sacrifice happiness when that’s what I’ve been working towards since I went freelance.
So yeah, the trip will get booked if I can scrape together the money. Here’s hoping!
Get rid of crap…like seriously you have way too much shit
I’m sure this is on many people’s lists: declutter. It was on my list last year and I did get rid of a load of stuff…it’s just that there’s still so much crap in our house. I swear it’s breeding. So this is my continued task this year. Since we haven’t got a big wedding to deal with this year, I’ll be available for the majority of car boot season. I love car boots – getting rid of stuff and getting money for it. It’s so much more satisfying than eBay. But I will be ebaying a bunch of clothes too as they are worth more.
I’ve already taken out of my wardrobe any clothes that I bought to slim into and they’re in my eBay pile. I’d definitely advise that if you’re losing weight you should only buy clothes to slim into that are the next size down, not any more than that. I had bought stuff in the past that I eventually was able to fit into but this stuff I bought was for my target weight – very silly. As I said above, my target weight is no more so I definitely don’t need these clothes. What a waste of money. Fingers crossed I can get some cash for them.
Stop feeling so bloody inadequate – you are enough
I’m sure people can relate when I say that I’m my own worst enemy and I’m sick of being so mean to myself. Overall I would normally describe myself as a happy person but I definitely need to be kinder to myself. I’m not sure exactly how I’m going to get to a point where I can say that I’ve achieved this as I think it’s an ongoing process but it needed to be on my list. I’m turning 30 this year and I want to go into my 30s being a happier, more confident person. So wish me luck.