Remembering my “Why”

Remembering my “Why”

Flashback to December 2011. I was 23, in one of the most mind numbingly boring jobs and desperate for a creative outlet. I wanted somewhere to share my love of fashion, art and pretty things. So Nomad Seeks Home was born.

Over the years I loved having a place I could turn to write about the things I cared about and have some fun. Plus it’s almost 8 years later and I have a diary of my twenties I can look back on which is so cool.

So back to the present day. I’m 31 and you may or may not have noticed that I’ve been finding it difficult to blog regularly over the last year or two. I won’t lie, it’s been a real struggle. There have been many times where I’ve considered packing in the whole blog all together.

The reason behind it all is my mental health. When I was freelance I struggled a lot with it and it definitely effected my blog in the end. I found myself being caught in the comparison trap and even though this wasn’t my main source of income, I felt the pressure.

Eventually I felt trapped in the whole cycle of “what’s the point of creating if no one cares or comments or likes etc.” So I didn’t create anything.

Even after I quit the self employed life and took the pressure off, I still found myself pushing my laptop away and even withdrawing from social media. I think I needed the break. But it’s been a long time and I miss it.

Recently I had a bit of a breakthrough and it all started when I walked into Zara. Weird I know but the collection they had in there a few weeks ago was so bright and colourful it made me excited. I haven’t thought about fashion in years – at least not the way I used to.

I miss having that feeling and blogging gave me that feeling. It’s the same feeling I got when I bought myself a new planner. I really want to blog about it too. I want to share – even if no one is listening. Just because I love it.

So to get my love of blogging back, all I need to do is remember my why. Why did I start? I wanted to have somewhere to gush about all the things I loved and had no one to talk about it to.

I’m smiling as I type this because I can literally feel my blog love reigniting. I know because of my mental health there will be a lot of bad days but it’s all about grabbing the good and making the most of it. I always feel better when I’ve done something. So that’s what I’m going to do.

Do something.

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